I’ll tell you a secret … I’ve been a little distracted lately.
(Which — I’ll tell you — is a very modern and grown-up kind of brokenness.)
But today, I went for a walk in the woods — something I haven’t done for months now.
I disappeared into a hole in the trees — freckled dark shade and lush underbrush. I felt alive and at peace, and when I came out, I walked home and rustled through the bookshelves until I found this little gem by Mr. Cummings (or cummings, if you like) …
It’s a poem, but today I’m saying it like a prayer… For me and for you:
May we stay hungry and fearless and thirsty and supple, always. ❤
I don’t know about you, but I’ve always loved flowers best just before their petals fall …
They hide nothing. Hold nothing back …
And then they’re gone.
Today, I’m contemplating the bouquet of white tulips that a dear friend gave me, since they seem to be doing just that:
This is how it happens: we drive up Mill Mountain, the Xterra snaking a black ribbon of road through the green.
At top, there’s the Star.
We have two special friends from DC with us, visiting for the weekend, and we know that no trip to our little city is complete without at least ten minutes on the Star Overlook, leaning on the rails, taking in the view and snapping photographs.
So that’s what we do.
We stand there gaping at the view: range after range of blue hills disappearing into the distance, smudged and softened into cloud.
We gape at the Roanoke Star, too: that big neon contraption that glows white in the night, seen for miles and miles.
After we’re done happily gaping, I take all the usual photos that one takes at the Star. Like this:
And then we head back down the trail to where our cars our parked.
But just before we get there, I stop right in the middle of the sidewalk. My eye is caught by a single clean circle grooved in the pavement — inexplicably round as a dinner plate, perfect and precise. The light catches in the grass nearby, and I think: this.
My husband makes a joke about the way I’m dawdling behind, taking photos of leaves on the sidewalk. And I’m okay with that — being the girl who lags behind, finding beauty in damp asphalt, dry leaves and bits of green.
Because as much as I love my little city and its great-big beautiful star (and I do) … I love this shot the most:
Happy seeing, friends. Hope your eyes are open to all sorts of ordinary wonder today. ❤
I’ll tell you a secret: for a little while I’ve been standing at a crossroads. Stuck fast.
Big, hard-edged life choices have always been difficult for me, with my watery, soft-smudged way of seeing the world, and this season is no exception. The roads are diverging for me, and whichever way I choose has the potential to drastically change my future.
I don’t know, I find myself saying often.
I don’t know.
The other day I was scrolling through the photo library of my old IPhone 4S — the one that I used to start this little blog, once upon a time — and I stumbled on this photo:
Down on the greenway near Carilion, at a bend where the trail meets the river, there’s a spot where you can stand under the intersection of three bridges: the railroad trestle, the roadway, and the pedestrian bridge. I was always caught by the clean architectural beauty of those crisscrossing lines, and I’ve photographed them many times.
On the day when I took that picture, though, something was different: a solid beam of the most beautiful gold sun shot between the bridges, making a pathway of light on the water. I snapped picture after picture, transfixed.
And then I went home and promptly forgot about it.
But today, staring at that beam of light, I’m struck by the message I was sending to myself so many moons ago:
There is another road.
One not made by human hands: