Last week, quietly and without much fanfare, alpha // whiskey // foxtrot surpassed a milestone that still blows my mind a little bit: by my latest check, I’ve got 1,066 followers and counting.
I’ll be honest: this is both wonderful and a little unsettling. Most days, I envision myself writing to about as many friends as I can fit around my dining room table. There’s a cozy envelope of good wine and candlelight-gleam and flickering shadow, and if I decide to tell a story, I’m leaning on some friend’s shoulder while my favorite jazz fills up all the empty space in the background … Safe.
All that to say: if this space feels intimate to you, it’s at least partially because I view the writing process as intimate. And so I’m still getting my head around what it means to be intimate in a space that feels a little bit less intimate all the time.
Which isn’t a bad thing — just different.
But maybe we can make this space feel more personal, even if there’s slightly less elbow room at the table than there used to be. Which is why I thought I’d share a few basic things about myself that are important for you to know, if you’re new here:
1. I’m all about the beauty — and I mean that.
Most humans need food, water, shelter and warmth. I need those things, too … And I need beauty.
I need green leaves, moonwashed night skies, the electric hum of the city sparking to life in the dark.
I need photographs and paintings, dancing slippers and drawing pads.
And I guess I don’t need a vintage Victrola, but I sure would like one. (Anybody?)
All that to say: keeping a blog offers me the space to make beauty, even — and especially — when it’s hard for me to find it out in the world.
2. I’ve been married for more than nine years to this guy:
T is the stable voice of reason to my gushy creative chatter: the guy who pulls me out of the middle of the street when I’m standing there transfixed with my camera, shooting birds on rooftops while a car threatens to run me down. (And yes, that’s actually happened.)
He’s the patient one who just sighs and turns over in his sleep when I get out of bed to get an idea on paper — again.
3. I’ve been recovered from anorexia for more than a decade, and I feel crazy-lucky about that, too.
I’m long past the days when I worked to stay healthy. Now, I get to work to be happy: to live joyfully in my own skin. To go easy on myself. To love well.
It’s still hard sometimes. But mostly, it’s kinda beautiful.
4. I’m an ENFP, and an Enneagram Type 4... a deeply creative, meditative and introspective person with a surprisingly sparkly social persona. If you really want to know me better, go ahead and click those links — In spite of the tension that seems to exist between these descriptions, I’m about as textbook as they come.
So. If you’re new here — what about you? What makes you hum and glow? Who keeps you grounded — or pushes you out from the dock?
I’d love to get to know you better, too. ❤